“Solitude is not the absence of company, but the moment when our soul is free to speak to us and help us decide what to do with our life.” -Manuscript found in Accra by Paulo Coelho I have always been fascinated with the night sky. Being alone under the twinkling stars and a moon that changes its shape everyday gives me a feeling that nothing else can. It allows my soul to talk to me. It allows me to reflect on my past, make decisions in the present that would also affect my future. It allows me to talk to my heart, my soul and understand what really is going on in my mind… ..and there are a few people who mistakes solitude with loneliness. I would say blessed are those people who can enjoy solitude on a regular basis. Those who know how to make time for themselves and talk with their inner voice only to understand them more a bit deeper because without solitude, no one can ever appreciate the things he/she has in his/her life. The night sky would forever inspire me.
It's been so long that I posted something here. But I hope you do understand the life was taking a toll. Passing the last year of high school and then the entrance exams, searching a college that's suitable and then finally moving away from home to college. It's overwhelming, all this process. Well, I'm leaving for college tomorrow that is somewhere like 250 kms away from home.
My old Facebook profile was removed from the site because I used 'Perfectly Imperfect' as my name. Well, I have a brand new account and you could add me or message me there. You could see it on the right side alongside Twitter and there is always my email id. I love hearing from you :)
In the meanwhile, I also started my new photo page called 'Fotografirati' as I lost access to my previous page 'Clickotek' after my fb account was shut.
This is just a small post to tell you all lovely followers that I'm back and would be active as ever no matter what curve ball life throws me next. I love you all readers, thank you very much for your support! :)
Hello friends, it's been so long that I have posted and I'm once again sorry for not updating my blog so much. Just a few months and I would be outta my horrible school ^.^
The word 'change' is on my mins a lot since quite some time now. People say that I have changed. I admit that I have changed but for the better but a few of my so-called-friends do not agree. In 8th standard, I was the shy little girl who wanted to fit in the cool crowd but ultimately got kind of bullied as I mentioned in my post Haters would hate! When those incidents brought up confidence within me, in 9th I was able to fight back for my rights and speak out, something I was never able to do before then. In 10th, I became the social bee in the school, I had the popular gang which I only used to dream of in class 8th. Moving in 11th, brought a drastic change in my life. The heavy burden of studies, coaching's parent pressure and the breaking up of my gang due to change in schools/sections.....
...and there is it where it all starts. I realized people who said they won't forget to keep in touch, din't even came to meet up n the recess. People who said that they care about you, back bitched against you to the rest of the people and people who said they loved you, couldn't care less. I think, that's when I started feeling changes in my outlook on life and society. I'll come back on the society part later. Talking about life and people, unlike before I now very well know when they are merely just flirting with me, sugarcoating their words and I act accordingly. IS THAT BAD ? When now I don't pay attention anymore to those who brags about how they had a great chat with me ? I mean, how stupid it is. Creating a mountain from beads. But then again, people said I used to be amazing in 10th and not now. Well, back at that time I was too impractical and emotional. I used to believe in anything and everything that others said. I should use the word 'gullible' but now, I feel I'm more practical, straight forward and mature. Now I don't wait for fairytale endings because I know how people in this cruel society be.
Talking about society, I have noticed that it does not accept you the way you are. No, I don't do drugs, I haven't drink alcohol in my life, haven't been in the disco ever and I'm gonna turn 18 in a few months. YES, people like me do exist and still the society won't accept you the way you are. No matter whatever you do, they are gonna pinpoint you and tell out your mistakes instead of finding their own and rectifying it.
Reminds me of a line from a Selena's song:
"Who are you to judge when you are just a diamond in the rug"
I can't be myself in school around my so called friends. Anything I do, they have a problem and they can't resist the urge to make a comment on it. I'm so fed up!
I'm growing up, everyone does.I have changed, people and circumstances made me changed, but for the better. I'm just knowing the world now, and believe me if I get a chance, I would love to become a kid all over again, where the hardest decision was to choose which color crayon to use.
P.S Again, I won't be having time to promote this blog post. It's all here for my blog readers. Thank you so much for still sticking with me. I feel so light after talking to all of you! :)
Ever wondered how did you feel when you looked your own reflection in the mirror for the first time as a kid ? Of course, you don't. You were so small back then. Observe a child and get to know. The curiosity of who is there the other side and the happiness that gleams in the eyes when finally the mystery is solved is all what goes through the heart of the little child in the first meeting with the mirror.
But then time passes.....
You grow up as a teen and all the raging hormones overpower you. You do not like what is there in the mirror. You don't like that excess hair on the face, that fat nose, uneven chin and the pimple sprouting on the cheeks which seems bigger the longer you stare at it. You seem a bit too fat even when you are underweight and the list goes on. You go to the supermarket, surf the beauty section and get all those beauty masks and creams that came up in the advertisements. Come back home, whine about how ugly and fat you are and waste your teen life in the front of the mirror trying to look pretty and never been convinced enough.
This is what teen life of most of the girls is. Lack of self confidence. They are scared to even look their own reflection in the mirror always convinced, they are not good enough. That they may not be accepted in the society, that they won't find their love otherwise, that they would be consider as a geek. All this and failing to realize, beauty is in the eyes of the beholder and is only skin deep. Nice quote, huh ? It's true.
You spend majority of your time thinking and caring about how you look than actually finding out your true inner self and that is what creates so much problem. Surely, people would consider the looks in the first meeting but when they actually get to know how beautiful you are from the inside, being pretty doesn't matter. Don't mistake "Beautiful" and "Pretty". They both are two different terms. "Pretty" means the outer appearance and "Beautiful" is the is the inner one, your soul, your nature.
It makes me feel sad when I see young teens not happy with their body, their face. C'mon girlies, accept yourself what you are and the world would accept you. Love yourself and the reflection you see in the mirror.
P.S Inner appearance always weigh more than the outer one.
No no one is actually gonna like you if you are miss world or something and doing drugs and getting treatment from the rehab.
P.P.S You are not defined by the reflection in the mirror.