Growing up: Change ?

Hello friends, it's been so long that I have posted and I'm once again sorry for not updating my blog so much. Just a few months and I would be outta my horrible school ^.^

The word 'change' is on my mins a lot since quite some time now. People say that I have changed. I admit that I have changed but for the better but a few of my so-called-friends do not agree. In 8th standard, I was the shy little girl who wanted to fit in the cool crowd but ultimately got kind of bullied as I mentioned in my post Haters would hate! When those incidents brought up confidence within me, in 9th I was able to fight back for my rights and speak out, something I was never able to do before then. In 10th, I became the social bee in the school, I had the popular gang which I only used to dream of in class 8th. Moving in 11th, brought a drastic change in my life. The heavy burden of studies, coaching's  parent pressure and the breaking up of my gang due to change in schools/sections.....

...and there is it where it all starts. I realized people who said they won't forget to keep in touch, din't even came to meet up n the recess. People who said that they care about you, back bitched against you to the rest of the people and people who said they loved you, couldn't care less. I think, that's when I started feeling changes in my outlook on life and society. I'll come back on the society part later. Talking about life and people, unlike before I now very well know when they are merely just flirting with me, sugarcoating their words and I act accordingly. IS THAT BAD ? When now I don't pay attention anymore to those who brags about how they had a great chat with me ? I mean, how stupid it is. Creating a mountain from beads. But then again, people said I used to be amazing in 10th and not now. Well, back at that time I was too impractical and emotional. I used to believe in anything and everything that others said. I should use the word 'gullible' but now, I feel I'm more practical, straight forward and mature. Now I don't wait for fairytale endings because I know how people in this cruel society be.

Talking about society, I have noticed that it does not accept you the way you are. No, I don't do drugs, I haven't drink alcohol in my life, haven't been in the disco ever and I'm gonna turn 18 in a few months. YES, people like me do exist and still the society won't accept you the way you are. No matter whatever you do, they are gonna pinpoint you and tell out your mistakes instead of finding their own and rectifying it.

Reminds me of a line from a Selena's song:

"Who are you to judge when you are just a diamond in the rug"

I can't be myself in school around my so called friends. Anything I do, they have a problem and they can't resist the urge to make a comment on it. I'm so fed up!

I'm growing up, everyone does.I have changed, people and circumstances made me changed, but for the better. I'm just knowing the world now, and believe me if I get a chance, I would love to become a kid all over again, where the hardest decision was to choose which color crayon to use.

P.S Again, I won't be having time to promote this blog post. It's all here for my blog readers. Thank you so much for still sticking with me. I feel so light after talking to all of you! :)

Mirror: Beautiful is not pretty!

Ever wondered how did you feel when you looked your own reflection in the mirror for the first time as a kid ? Of course, you don't. You were so small back then. Observe a child and get to know. The curiosity of who is there the other side and the happiness that gleams in the eyes when finally the mystery is solved is all what goes through the heart of the little child in the first meeting with the mirror.

But then time passes.....

You grow up as a teen and all the raging hormones overpower you. You do not like what is there in the mirror. You don't like that excess hair on the face, that fat nose, uneven chin and the pimple sprouting on the cheeks which seems bigger the longer you stare at it. You seem a bit too fat even when you are underweight and the list goes on. You go to the supermarket, surf the beauty section and get all those beauty masks and creams that came up in the advertisements. Come back home, whine about how ugly and fat you are and waste your teen life in the front of the mirror trying to look pretty and never been convinced enough.

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This is what teen life of most of the girls is. Lack of self confidence. They are scared to even look their own reflection in the mirror always convinced, they are not good enough. That they may not be accepted in the society, that they won't find their love otherwise, that they would be consider as a geek. All this and failing to realize, beauty is in the eyes of the beholder and is only skin deep. Nice quote, huh ? It's true.

You spend majority of your time thinking and caring about how you look than actually finding out your true inner self and that is what creates so much problem. Surely, people would consider the looks in the first meeting but when they actually get to know how beautiful you are from the inside, being pretty doesn't matter. Don't mistake "Beautiful" and "Pretty". They both are two different terms. "Pretty" means the outer appearance and "Beautiful" is the is the inner one, your soul, your nature.

It makes me feel sad when I see young teens not happy with their body, their face. C'mon girlies, accept yourself what you are and the world would accept you.  Love yourself and the reflection you see in the mirror.

P.S Inner appearance always weigh more than the outer one.

No no one is actually gonna like you if you are miss world or something and doing drugs and getting treatment from the rehab.

P.P.S You are not defined by the reflection in the mirror.

A quick update !! :)

Hello friend's! Let smile be your style today. It's been long I have updated this blog. Just a quick reminded that I'm still alive :P

Lot's of happening in my life and being the last year of school life, it's more hectic. Sorry for not posting often. Let me go through this year, by the next I would be again back with a smashing bang.

I guess, I will do a blog post soon with my newly clicked pictures of nature ? What say ? ;)

Would like to thank all my readers who are still part of this blog. 413 followers, 150 readers each day and the blog just reached it's 55000 pageviews mark. Isn't that just so awesome ?

Also received quite a few e-mails from you all today. Thank you for being so encouraging and sweet to this 17 year old teen. Motivates me a lot.

 If you have any question's or need to talk to me:
i_m_perfectly_imperfect@yahoo.com is my e-mail id :)

Meanwhile, I no longer have access to my Facebook account because Facebook has problems with me using my screen name. Hopefully in a week or two, I'll figure out how to come back on the social networking site again.

I hope you all are doing really well, autumn is here and winter's are not that far away. I can't wait to wear my winter uniform again. It's so fashionable :P
Not promoting this post anywhere on the web except here. This is just a quick update for all my reader's. Thank you again so much for all your love and encouragement. Definitely means a lot! :)

Signing off with a picture made by Chibird. I love her doodles, so cute! ^.^

Bubzbeauty: Beauty lies in the heart

There are  A FEW people in your life that inspires you, who you look up to, who becomes your role model. A year back I blogged about how Julia Child became my inspiration and the reason behind it. Another one added to the list today. The screen name is Bubzbeauty.

Real name being Lindy Tsang is a youtube guru. Vlogging about makeup tips/hair and nail styling, inspirational topics,  girl talks and what all not. Before you assume things, no I'm not that into makeup and styling. I still consider myself too young for that but the inspirational/girl talk vlogs are super awesome. The best thing about her is even after achieving great success, she is so humble and down to earth connecting with her millions of fans across the world. She taught me how to find out your inner talent, to stay happy and find out something optimistic in every situation, to deal with even the most annoying people and how to have a healthy relationship. I owe it to her! Not everybody becomes my role model, nor I blog about such personalities over here. But when I do, it definitely made a huge impact on me. I never miss the 'girl talk' or the 'diary' video. I also keep myself updated by stalking her facebook page :D

Tim is her boyfriend's name and they look so adorable together. If you think fairy tale stories do not exist in real life, go watch the videos in which they are together and you are going to believe it yourself. After 9 long years of relationship (Yes, it's a LOT ) Tim finally proposed her yesterday. Aww...
Read the whole post on her blog and for the first time in my life, tears of happiness dropped along my cheeks. Nah, I haven't been moved to such a great extend for someone else, it was like the feeling, I couldn't explain. Fairy tales do happen, good people still exist. You just need to find one.

I have been following her since the past two years. Makes me feel connected to her and listening to this news made me felt as if there has been an engagement in my family xD


It all started when I was searching paint videos on youtube. Had that urge to paint something that day and I was directed to the page 'bubzbeauty'. Did I told you that she is an amazing artist too ? I browsed all her videos and was motivated instantly. Obviously there is a huge difference in her old and new videos. She has grown up as a person, as a vlogger, as a guru in the upcoming years. That's we call experience, isn't it ?


Call this a teen post/ a random post or whatever. It moved me.
Lindy is officially second person in my people who inspire me list. Julia Child being the first one.

P.S Due to lack of writing/reading these days, my writing style is back to the basic level. :P
*sigh*, waiting for the next year to arrive.

Give yourself some "ME" time!

The pleasant breeze, cool atmosphere, isolated from the rest, Scruffy and the contrast between the city lights and the night sky.. terrace is my favorite place at night for some 'me' time. Whenever I feel tangled up inside or feel like giving people hi-5 on their face, I go up there to calm myself down. To  relax and let the little voice in my head speak in complete silence around.

We are all so caught up in our web of life that we can't even take time for ourselves. In a mad world all we do is join the rat race and see who gets there first.Away from all distractions, technology and people. Just you and nature. Think about how things are going at your end. Are you happy with it ? If not, how are you going to bring about these changes ? Let that little imaginary voice in your head speak and you would realize, you only have the solutions to your problems. 

Got some free time ? Instead of wasting it on twitter by tweeting or on facebook by updating things no one cares about, just do what you love. Give that time to your hobbies or just sit down, relax and introspect your life and then see the difference in your lifestyle.. We do have time for ourselves too in this busy world. We just need to sort our priorities right.

What do you do in your "me" time ?

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 My last post completely describes how I'm feeling. This ain't the first time I'm being frustrated by people being such bitches. But, now I have lost my patience and it's becoming way too much. I do not have 'good', 'mature', 'real' people in my so called friend circle right now and I need to change that to help me remain sane. I don't have the slightest of idea, what pleasure do people receive after creating misunderstandings between their own friends ? Anyways, I currently do not have time to make new friends and connect to them. So I just have to learn to ignore and control my temper. Block these obstacles from my path of studying somehow. 

Anyways, clicked this *pokes below* today early in the morning. I loved the way it has come out. The color composition, the dew drops <3

Photography, blogging and gazing at the night sky sums up my "me time". What about you ? *wink*